2nd death anniversary

beloved zhiwei..
it's been 2 years..

he's left 4F'o4 for 2 whole yrs..
although i wasnt very close to him, i juz couldnt forget we were chattin with each other abt v day prezzie 2 yrs ago..
and few days later, he gave all of us such a tremendous shock..
guess dats the longest conversation i'd with him..
the rest're juz some 'hi' & 'bye'..

death happens to every mankind..
and it's not onli the one who's dead'll feel the pain juz before the moment they left for the other world..
it's torturing for those who're stil in this world, mourning for the dead..
it's not rehearsing..
it's definitely not when u feel the sadness for a moment, and next moment god gif u a chance to treasure this person again..

once gone, forever gone..
it's painful and heartaching to have these unhappy memories..

nowadays so much news abt murdering..
the reporters is skillful enuff to capture the expressions of the loved ones..
i find this kinda of expression is the most unwanted and yet hard to capture in a nice angle..
murder juz becox of some money issue..

money is not everythin..
a few days ago's a sort of argument wif nic..
he insists des to go for airforce thingy, wants him to be a pilot..
i was against the idea but also speechless after realising he juz wont get my point..

wad i think is:
1. Money seems to mean alot to him.. from the moment he started the topic, he mentioned and stressed alot abt the pay..
2. it's his bro who's taking the risk..

anyway, i was strongly against the idea cox i believe there are better jobs out there which are less risky..
moreover, he was right, des need to earn a living..
BUT, is there a need to earn so much?
even if there's a need to, is there a need to put his life at stake?

flying here & there seems very cool eh?
but to me, i find it's juz playing a game of life & death..
This game is 'live', not ordinary arcade games, and it pays u well too~

i juz dun understand why u ppl do not learn to treasure ur life..
mayb he hasnt take the blow of someone he loved passing away..
definitely, one time experience is more than enuff..

zhiwei's incident has made me realised alot of goals in life..
i realli hope some senseless ppl, who thinks gamin is more than anythin, will come to their senses soon..


resting in peace~